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This is just a place for me to pen my thoughts and beautiful things or even people... It can be about anyone or everyone... Or it can be of nobody.
I am... Addictive, Imaginative, experimentive, rebellious, Bitchy, Extroverted/Social, Flirtatious, Funny, Intellectual, Loving, Romantic, Serious, Flamboyant, Demure Cravings... Beauty of all living or non-living, DayDreaming of the impossible, Chauvinist to rule my world, Life at the end of the rainbow, Love that station me at cloud eleven, Sex that last for eternity. For thoughts As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place... Archives September 2005 Thanks for reading. =) hidden hit counter |
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 2:30 PM  Hey~ If you see me walking the road with someone else It's not because I like his company Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me. If you hear me talking about her all the time Its not because he pleases me Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat If you feel me falling with someone new Its not because I love him Because you're not there to catch me fall If you feel lost, I too am nowhere I too don't know where the road is going Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound Don't let me walk with him It's you I want to walk with Don't let me talk of him It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for him It's you I want to fall in love with. "THE ANSWER" When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step of the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you It was because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is going Are we just going to turn around, Or are we gonna cross each other's path? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk of something else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with. 2:05 PM Pebbles spread all over mypath. Careful stride to avoid bruised knees. Looking back at the walked journey So far…I smiled and look forward. Something along the path. I hesitated. A uniquely familiar looking pebble. “Why are you still here?!” I have walked so far! Attempting to forgo everything. I was someone dear. Someone very dear to you Now and forever. But then, You choose my direction. All was said and done, There and then 1:00 PM Noticed.... Albert Einstein taught me how to think. I've learn to think of it as that my cup was half full than it's half empty. He tried more than 2000 times to create a suitable material for the filament for a bulb until he finally succeeded. Instead of thinking, he failed that amount of times; he concluded that he found out more than 2000 materials aren’t suitable for the filament of a bulb. Instead of running in circles, thinking for reasons for losing you is my lost… I’ll think otherwise. Friday, September 14, 2007 2:17 PM Two faces were shown.Ignoring that fact yet there is too much coincidence. I choose to believe you but truths are thrown on me. Leaving you is not by choice, It is because I am forced to. Your world no longer needs me around. New girls that you can meet and have with no obligations. Broke my heart times and again. Explanations were given each and every time. I’ll just fall back to be your little girl. This time round, it is different. Simplicity is no longer a charming character you had. You were afraid I might tarnish your reputation. A image you made up to show others. I state truth. Yet, you felt that I am being pathetic. You did not want to carry the blame. You will always be my beautiful fairytale Thursday, September 13, 2007 2:15 PM It still takes a while... Things been weird recently. It's been a while. I still got hit constantly by mood swing. Plentiful of them. I'm drained yet that I can't bring myself to sleep... Maybe that's the price to pay for all that we've been through. It's cold turkey now. Thing aren't the same. I'm been dying to see you again yet your words constantly piercing through my heart... Your harshness, coldness leave me battling with my pride, I have made a choice, I need to keep some dignity, I need some get my job done. So I have got to go through the treatment. Tough but I know it will only made me stronger. I know my smile will no longer be the same, I know I'll never be the same Me. I never will be. I'll have to move on. Not allowing any bits of you, not a single trace to be left behind. The cold turkey treatment will allows me to forget your existance, the smell of your perfume will no longer turn my head... Because, our heart no longer beats as one. You have your life and I had mine. You are and always wil be my best fairytale. The tears that I've shed will covered the path we've walked together. Removing any footprints that we've made, Into a river that will flow for eternity. Wednesday, September 12, 2007 2:18 PM  Putting down my dignityI called you up Trembling heart feels weary, You picked up my call. Tears of joys were form. Your voice is my only source of comfort. Yet you appear distant.Getting rid of me is your ultimate goal. I hung up. Waited for your explanation. I had none. A message from you broke my heart. You claimed you are tired of explaining about us. Presuming you wanted to lead your life without me this time. All I wanted is to feel your warmth. You wanted me out.Therefore, I shall. Friends asking me to give up. Saying, it’s about time. Tuesday, September 11, 2007 12:00 PM  Never...Never say I love you, if you really don't care. Never talk about feelings, if they aren't really there. Never hold my hand, if you gonna break my heart. Never say you are going to, if you don't plan to start. Never look into my eyes, if all you do is lie. Never say hi, if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever, then say you will try. Never say forever, cos' forever makes me cry... |