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This is just a place for me to pen my thoughts and beautiful things or even people... It can be about anyone or everyone... Or it can be of nobody.
I am... Addictive, Imaginative, experimentive, rebellious, Bitchy, Extroverted/Social, Flirtatious, Funny, Intellectual, Loving, Romantic, Serious, Flamboyant, Demure Cravings... Beauty of all living or non-living, DayDreaming of the impossible, Chauvinist to rule my world, Life at the end of the rainbow, Love that station me at cloud eleven, Sex that last for eternity. For thoughts As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place... Archives September 2005 Thanks for reading. =) hidden hit counter |
Friday, May 30, 2008 5:39 PM  That's what I will do.Till you come home... Wednesday, May 28, 2008 1:13 AM  Pink elephants and lemonade. Sweet and sour. Just like you and me. Chemistry that we shared amazed me. Content of it is better not made known. No doubt, it's sweet. Sour thou, we shared the same name. What I thought was me. "Baby" was someone else. Am I as special as her or vise versa? Questions I didn't want to know the answers. For it produce a "Does it really matter" answer. Things are tensed recently. Bursting balloons everywhere. Tears and laughter can be heard. Be reminded... They are two different elements. You can't laugh and cry at the same time. It's getting complicated. I want to smile all over again.. Like you used to teach me. Holding my hands when I took baby steps. I want to smile all over. Complications widen the gap. I want it simple. Like pink elephants and lemonade... Sunday, May 25, 2008 11:59 PM  I like falling for you. 11:19 PM  I’m tired of being misunderstood, nerves are shot, weak – like old wood.
no energy, can’t think, losing my skills. I’m tired of so-called friends, stabbing me in the back, again and again. I’m tired of trying to make things right, I give up – I surrender, no will to fight. I’m tired of seeing others in pain, raises frustration, drives me insane. I’m tired of not being able to cry, I’d melt away, nothing left inside. I’m tired because I can’t feel, walking in a daze – numb, this can’t be real.I’m tired of being “strong,” I’m weak, I’m fragile, its gone on way to long. I don’t know what else to say, I’m hoping,I’m dreaming, I’m begging, I’m pleading,
Please, take this feeling away. Right now… I’m just tired… Thursday, May 22, 2008 11:19 PM  I had lunch with a girlfriend. She commented on something that strike me suddenly. I just kept nodding. "We are always looking for stable relationships. But when we are in it, we stray." I nodded. "But when we are in 'unstable' relationship, we didn't stray." I nodded again. "Not because we didn't want to... But we were kept busy." What more can I say...? I love that girl. Tuesday, May 20, 2008 11:19 PM  Confused as I can ever get.Days aren't that pretty. Things between aren't lively. Something had gone wrong. Yet we shared the same smile. Silence moments are plenty. We stuck through without feeling empty. So much for nothing, Yet nothing pretty much indicate everything. "I hate loving you." =) Sunday, May 18, 2008 11:14 PM  The room was dim. This place where I rest my soul seems disturbed. Unable to remove that guilt, My shoulder seems heavy. As I move closer to my bed, I saw him. Sleeping ever so soundly on my bed. I saw tears. When he opened his eyes to my touch. For that moment, I can't look in his eyes. As I cant justify my actions, Nor can I rectify. I broken down. He calmly picked me up into his arms. To a place where I thought was not good enough. He smiled. I managed a word of sorry. Rocking me like an infant in a mother's arms. Loved and protected. The only sentence he said that night was: "Thanks for coming home." 11:06 PM  Jellyfish are fascinating creatures and there is a lot of interesting jellyfish facts. Did you for example know that jellyfish in some countries are considered delicatessens. One such country is Japan. This is the reason behind a growing international market for dried jellyfish. The jellyfish is dried to prevent them from spoiling. A jellyfish spoils in a matter of hours if it isn’t dried while I dried jellyfish can be stored for weeks. And that’s a jellyfish fact.Another fascinating fact about jellyfish is that they don’t have any brain, heart, bones or eyes. Some jellyfish has ways of detecting obstacles that can be compared to sight but they don’t have real eyes. It is a mystery how they can process the information from their “sight” since they doesn’t have any brain. They react directly on food and danger stimuli via nerve impulses without having any brain to process the impulses. Another fact about jellyfish and their bodies is that the bodies are over 95% water. Jellyfish uses tentacles with stinger cells to catch their food that consist of plankton and small fish. (Depends on the jellyfish size) The tentacles transport the food they killed with their stingers to their mouth before devouring it. It is the same stinger cells that stings humans. Jellyfish goes through several stages during their lifecycle and the form that you usually associate with jellyfish, Medusas, is only one of them. There is also planula, jellyfish larvae. The planulae later attach themselves and become which later turn to medusas. Jellyfish fact: Jellyfish has been around for more than 650 million years which means that they outdate the dinosaurs and the sharks. Jellyfish fact: Different of jellyfish can be found in all the worlds’ ocean. Jellyfish can even be found in freshwater. Jellyfish fact: A species of jellyfish, the kills more people than any other marine creature. Jellyfish fact:The worlds largest known jellyfish can reach a diameter of 2.5 m/ 8ft and their tentacles can grow to be half the length of a football field. Jellyfish fact:Jellyfishes uses jet propulsion to make their way through to oceans of the world. Some jellyfish is avid swimmers while other mostly drifts with the currents. Jellyfish fact: Some species of jellyfish contains a lot of protein and is thought to be able to play a large role in ending hunger and in poor areas around the world. Jellyfish fact: Jellyfish is able to reproduce both sexually and asexually during different parts of their life cycles. I like it for a fact that it stings.. Saturday, May 17, 2008 9:28 PM  The sudden burst of light hurts my eyes. He walked so softly and placed himself right beside me. His fingers glided gently on my wet cheek. Brushing my hair above my ear. He said, "Here's the finale" He stood up. Withdrawing a shinning carving knife. I smiled. Awaiting with anticipation. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Feeling the coldness of the blade on my neck Gathering all my emotions together. Freedom was felt. "Soon... Soon the pain will be over." I know he won't lie. Tilting head backwards, exposing more than needed. He moved the blade slowly across my neck. I gave full concentration. I want to feel every bit of it. I know. Soon it will be over. Friday, May 16, 2008 11:13 PM  Thursday, May 15, 2008 7:31 PM  Polo Black.Indeed refreshing, leaving a tingling down your spine. A smell that you can resist yet hunger more. Nice and masculine, with score so close to perfect. Mystery is the word. Unable to justify the amount of pain or happiness it contains. For that moment you thought you knew that smell, It might all be gone the next. My encounter on that eventfully day. Like magic, Blissed is the only word. I was smiling... From within. I hunger for that forbidden smell. Loving every minute of it. It ended. Abruptly without notice. With it's mystical form, I thought I will never cry. Thinking that a smell that is of adoration won't last for long. I was wrong. It hurt with every movement it sways, moves, coils, touches, even the thoughts stings. It strike a clear differentiation between want and need. I need. I have fallen for that smell. More than I can ever imagine. For a price, that i can never pay. 4:18 AM  Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill You ask me if I love you And I choke on my replyI'd rather hurt you honestly Than mislead you with a lieAnd who am I to judge you On what you say or do?I'm only just beginning to see the real you And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too muchAnd I have to close my eyes and hide I wanna hold you til I dieTil we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsidesRomance and all its strategy Leaves me battling with my prideBut through the insecurity Some tenderness survivesI'm just another writer Still trapped within my truthA hesitant prize fighter Still trapped within my youthThe honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes and hideI wanna hold you til I die Til we both break down and cryI wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides At times I'd like to break you And drive you to your kneesAt times I'd like to break through And hold you endlesslyAt times I understand you I've watched while love commands you And I've watched love pass you byStill searching for a friend A brother or a sisterBut then the passion flares again And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too muchAnd I have to close my eyes and hide I wanna hold you til I dieTil we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsidesWednesday, May 14, 2008 1:03 PM  The storm was gone in a blink of an eye.Looking back... Everything was gone. What more can be said than a. "You had your pleasure and I had my fun." Some things are just beyond control. So much so as I want you, but I cant have you. So much so as I need you, but I cant want you. It's hard to go and it hurt like you said. Without looking back, I think I can do it. Everything will just be a memories and they are made to be kept. I never want things this way. Because I'll miss you more than I can bare. Endurable but I refused to. Things fade with time. "Heartache will be gone soon." I told myself. Sunday, May 11, 2008 1:03 PM  A little girl's parents fought almost every single day. Every night her dad would come home drunk and mad. One day, He pulls out a gun and shot his wife and turn the gun on himself. The little girl was hiding behind the couch crying. The police came and took the little girl to an orphanage. She walked into the bedroom and saw a picture of Jesus Christ on the cross. Girl: How did that man get off from that? Teacher: He didn't. Girl: Yes he did! Teacher: He didn't. Girl: Yes he did! He always sat next to me when my parents are fighting and he would tell me everything is going to be fine. You are reading this because it begins with a fight, but would you read this if it says Jesus Christ? REMEMBER: THE BIBLE SAYS "IF YOU DENY JESUS IN FRONT OF MAN HE WILL DENY IN FRONT OF HIS FATHER" Thursday, May 08, 2008 1:04 PM  Walking the rain is how I can ever express my mood.Someone so dear. I know it's hard for you. Maybe you should let go. Things might be easier that way. Breaking my heart to see you ached in pain That is not how I play my games. I never think twice of what I felt it should be done. No emotional connection. I dreamt of you the other night. Even when I'm in his arms. It's just not right. I think I longed to be in yours. How I wonder that the mutual fact. Denial is my only key. I think it's too late. I think I have fallen a little too deep. Sunday, May 04, 2008 7:03 PM  The sweetest sight. 4:38 AM  "Absence makes the heart grows fonder."Origin The Roman poet Sextus Propertius gave us the earliest form of this saying in Elegies: "Always toward absent lovers love's tide stronger flows." The contemporary version appears first as the title of an anonymous English poem in 1602. It wasn't until the 19th century that the phrase began to be used more widely, with Thomas Haynes Bayly's (1797-1839) song Isle of Beauty, published posthumously in 1850: "Absence makes the heart grow fonder, Isle of Beauty, Fare thee well!" Frequently, couples in this situation quote “absence makes the heart grow fonder” as a way of reassuring themselves and each other that their love will sustain them over the difficulties of distance and time. But unless both partners are committed to doing the very hard work of being together alone, their relationship will soon fall to another, equally common saying: “Out of sight, out of mind.” The immediate demands of work and the availability of attractive, available singles can, and regularly do, overwhelm good intentions and even love. Life is so assuring... =) What is forever? And how long is that? Haha~ Friday, May 02, 2008 8:48 PM  I'm feeling lousy these few days. My head had been tumbling non stop. It's that feeling of something aren't where they are supposed to be. But you can't pin point it out. I wonder... It's when nail painting can no longer makes me happy... Sleeping is making me lethargic... Ice cream no longer makes me smile... Roses aren't as pretty. Without anyone around, I don't feel lonely. I wanna be alone. All alone with no lights, no games, no air-conditioner. I want to talk to no one, sing to no one, scream at no one. Ya. All alone. I'm tired. But I miss you still... =) I know you will somehow, makes things right. Thursday, May 01, 2008 1:56 AM  A Special Someone Another day went by without you And guess what I'm still thinking of you I still remember clearly the day when I last saw you, Before you left for the far away country You gave me one of the sweetest kisses I've ever had. Now all I do is sit in a room and think about you, I wish upon a star every night Asking for you to come back to me now It's been two days since I last saw you And all I have is a memory of you I dream of seeing you again I dream of you thinking about me the way that I think about you. Every night I replay our moments together and all that we've shared. I just wish you could hold me in your arms right now, That's where i feel safe. I want one of your sweet kisses Now I am going to sleep hopping to dream about you. I know that soon enough you will be holding me again. |
