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This is just a place for me to pen my thoughts and beautiful things or even people... It can be about anyone or everyone... Or it can be of nobody.
I am... Addictive, Imaginative, experimentive, rebellious, Bitchy, Extroverted/Social, Flirtatious, Funny, Intellectual, Loving, Romantic, Serious, Flamboyant, Demure Cravings... Beauty of all living or non-living, DayDreaming of the impossible, Chauvinist to rule my world, Life at the end of the rainbow, Love that station me at cloud eleven, Sex that last for eternity. For thoughts As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place... Archives September 2005 Thanks for reading. =) hidden hit counter |
Monday, June 30, 2008 12:40 AM  Distance is growing on us. Unspoken sets of chemistry was what we used to have. Sparks of assurances change our lives. Choices were made knowing it's for the better. I had you holding my hand guiding my baby steps. But you let go a little too soon... I tried to be independent, pacing on your foot prints. Knowing at times, It's a must that you go. Fighting for a war that reaps enough. I try to stand by you like how I should be... But when I raise my head... I saw... Walking further and further away. Without turning. I sighed... Wondering the amount of time that it will take you before you realize... Realize that you had lost me... Wednesday, June 25, 2008 9:13 PM  Frustration is building up inside me. I cant seems to put a finger to it. It might have been work stress... But it felt like it can be anything. It's making me a lot edgy than I can ever imagine myself to be. It felt like depression. I wanted to be surrounded by friends, Yet reluctantly refuse to open up. I want him to be by my side, yet I cant relate what I want. I wanted to work, Yet I can struggled no more than a sigh. I want to run away again. I need somewhere safe. Fuck. Monday, June 23, 2008 9:13 PM   I want to be a princess. I want to be your princess. Give me a place where I call home. No worries upon thunderstorm. Love me like no others. Cherish whatever you have of me. I'll call me yours. Because I only wanted to be yours. Saturday, June 21, 2008 9:13 PM A little different this time. You might not believe in it... You have a choice to not read. =)             Friday, June 20, 2008 5:03 PM I tried to look to the perfect picture/photo to describe the feeling after I heard this song... Nothing pretty much explain the feeling I had after hearing this song... Go on.. Play it... And this... This make me want to fall in love. Play it... And tell me you feel the same... Love, me. 4:25 PM  Reality Sucks It's a good thing there are people in the world who refuse to accept reality. Some people call them crazy or psycho. Some people call them genius or passionate. I truly believe there should be more people who refuse to accept reality, in spite of the consequence. Because those are the people who have made the difference. But, people make their choices, all I can do is my part. Thursday, June 19, 2008 7:06 PM  I want my life back.Yet I'm running around in circles. Even when I thought I am running... I am actually walking. To be more precise, I'm walking. In more scientific term, we call it strolling, Which is slower than walking in a walking pace. But why is it call strolling when it's closer to pacing. But actually it's so slow till you can't feel the wind on your face... But actually, you can hear the crickets... and you can see the movement of grasses.. So I'm moving slower than expected... Was I even moving....? I need my life back.. I want to do many things. I need that motivation. I want to... Jump, scream, sing, talk, run, dance, walk, stroll, smile, laugh, clap, all over again. Pardon me.. It's call the transit period. Wednesday, June 18, 2008 9:14 AM  I just want to eat my cookie in peace. I do things without thinking. I don't like to cry. Nobody understands. 8:22 AM  This is for you.Waking up to a message that broke my heart totally. Healing in process. One had forgotten the simple rules in love. Rules of mending a broken heart. One have forgotten I have to learn to trust. Trust that love won't break me once more. The reason we slept. That's the core of a relationship. If that is unable to strike a spark, Nothing would, anymore. One's concern wasn't me. Wasn't if I am strong enough to carry this with me. Where I find the courage to disclose when I'm a girl. The value I would have left to haunt me. The damages done is enough to kill me... One's cared more about I slept. Broken hearts shattered everywhere. I tried to quote examples of our differences. One stood by all the time believing we can overcome. That was the past. I tried to be an open book... How many can read? One read... but do you understand For the shit I'm going through.. I doubt... Because you would have never did what you have done. "Fuck" is a crude word. Calling it off is never in my decision making. I am impressed with one's determination. Ability to obligate without hesitation. Pretty much said everything. You want me to be the one doing it... I will respect you. Monday, June 16, 2008 5:54 PM  我不怪你借用 我的感情 如果你曾用过心 我学会不在乎 背叛的很安靜 算了吧 就让你贏 我忘了你犯了错 道歉的话別说 我忘了你犯了错 所以我不难过 宁愿保持沉默 心才不会被撕破 拜托回忆 能放过我 我知道是结局 所以不犹豫 悲剧不該走下去 太勉强的拥抱 没有理由继续 我选择 当首插曲 不恨你 不爱我 至少我們有快乐过 我爱你 我恨我 只靠想念赶不走寂寞 我忘了你犯了错 道歉的话別说 我忘了你犯了错 所以我不难过 宁愿保持沉默 心才不会被撕破 请放过我 当爱不再是拥有 我不敢挽留 你会快乐 就足夠 我忘了你犯了错 道歉的话別说 我忘了你犯了错 所以我不难过 宁愿保持沉默 心才不会被撕破 请放过我 我忘了你犯了錯 道歉的話別说 我记得你深爱过 所以我不难过宁 愿保持沉默 心才不会被撕破 拜托回忆 能放过我 It's your thoughts that hurts me. It's you that pain me. Sunday, June 15, 2008 5:38 PM  Scorpio will sizzle and fret and Aquarius will wonder what all the fuss is about --- weird! For Scorpio: Why bother. This will never work due to the Aquarian's need for freedom and your need to possess. Your values, ethics and approach to life are just too different. For Aquarius: This is not the best coalition. You are both fixed in your beliefs and your free-spirited nature arouses suspicious side of the Scorpion. Aquarius is too impersonal and has too many outside interests to suit possessive, jealous Scorpio. Scorpio Man & Aquarius Woman This match can make for a fantastic short-term fling, but it’s a disaster as a real love match. You and the Scorpio boy are very different in some key areas that will make it near impossible to sustain a relationship. The physical attraction between you is incredible, and your kisses will be quite steamy. But... he is a demanding, possessive guy who will try to keep you all to himself. That’s no good for you, because you need freedom and you can’t stand someone trying to control you. He is all about control and he’ll get very bossy when he can’t make you do exactly what he wants. You will get angry and it will be a big blow-out. This is not a match that will make either one of you happy. Saturday, June 14, 2008 1:16 PM  So much to say. But nothing is coming out. -Love is Contradiction.- Wednesday, June 11, 2008 8:51 PM  A call is more than a slap on the face when you are in a situation where I am. "It's me, I just cant get over you. You just meant too much to me." I cried to that. Quietly. No, I didn't want him to hear me. When I thought it might be the truth. Some says it's a plan but others, just follow my heart. Stayed out more often than ever did. Staring blanking to the strange surrounding. My heart aches a little here and there when I left it alone. When the next phrase of pain rushes through my heart, I dug at it. Looking at the bloody mess. I asked the pumping organ in my hand, Why it hurts so badly? It gave no reply. But the pumping dies away slowly. As the colour fade from red till what I had now. Black. I cried so ever badly. I felt so bad. Guilt... ? Or pure simple love...? I wish I have a clue. Maybe I just missed him. Maybe. Tuesday, June 10, 2008 11:39 AM  Lost.In the company of many. I can't seems to place a finger to it. Feelings seems still frozen, Emotions roller coaster. Breaking me down somehow. A habit that I'm trying to quit. Quit thinking of you. I need my life back. Saturday, June 07, 2008 5:45 AM  Being with you is a happy thought. Each night I pray and thank God that he brought, Someone so special like you to my life Someone so precious to be by my side. Someone to love me and do all of the things that you do. I feel so lucky when you are by my side, I am so grateful to know you're mine. If ever you feel that your sky is all blue, don't ever doubt that I'll be there for you. And if you ever feel the need to love I'd like to be the one that you are thinking of. As each day goes by I wish you could see How valuable and wonderful you are to me. I would like to thank you for just being you, And thank all of the stars for giving me The happiness of being with you. I always dreamed of having someone like you, I just never it imagined that it would come true. Thank You. Friday, June 06, 2008 5:32 AM  I have lost you officially. We are known an item no more. Chilling wind blows as I watched you go. I lost my feelings when it's needed most. My numbed heart has lost it's ability to pumped no more. This is my first... And last confession to you. "Be safe, my dear." I prayed for you. Tears dropped and gone. I'll love you... No more. Wednesday, June 04, 2008 3:05 PM  The day when the clown cried. 太多一厢情愿了 我想 很多时候大概只有我自己一个在演独角戏 当我闭上眼 彷佛什么是都消失了 就像泡泡一样 永远都找不到的安全感 就这样吗？ 这样我们的一切都结束了吗 2:37 AM Tell me you feel the same... |
