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This is just a place for me to pen my thoughts and beautiful things or even people... It can be about anyone or everyone... Or it can be of nobody.
I am... Addictive, Imaginative, experimentive, rebellious, Bitchy, Extroverted/Social, Flirtatious, Funny, Intellectual, Loving, Romantic, Serious, Flamboyant, Demure Cravings... Beauty of all living or non-living, DayDreaming of the impossible, Chauvinist to rule my world, Life at the end of the rainbow, Love that station me at cloud eleven, Sex that last for eternity. For thoughts As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place... Archives September 2005 Thanks for reading. =) hidden hit counter |
Sunday, August 31, 2008 7:09 PM Please define. It's explained as "Yours" That's happiness. It contains no others. Inclusion of others is "Burden". It doesn't really matter to you. Because your happiness can't be shared. If it is shared... You don't call that Happiness but Burden. And this is totally insane. I felt my grip loosen. Saturday, August 30, 2008 3:33 PM ![]() Nights had been never so wonderful recently. Small little arguments that was never remembered the next morning. Holding hands comes ever so naturally. Tender loving arms we provide for each other. Cuddling to sleep almost every night. Enjoying each other's company. Teasing each other like kids. =) Thanks for making me smile. 2:39 AM 2:34 AM ![]() How I ever ponder on this fact. Till the day I quit loving you. For that I have chosen to be loved. Then to ever love again. I wish you ever enough. Thursday, August 28, 2008 3:20 PM ![]() I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve. I asked for prosperity and God gave me a brain and brawn to work. I asked for courage and God gave me danger to overcome. I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help. I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities. I received nothing I wanted and I received everything I needed. "The surest sign that there is other intelligent life in the universe is that they've never tried to contact us." Wednesday, August 27, 2008 3:23 PM I wanted to be a butterfly.There is a need to be one. It is a long process there. I know this have to happen. Stage 1 - Done In the egg stage, the joining of the male and female hereditary components take place. Stage 2 - Doing. During the caterpillar stage, the primary eating and growth stage of the insect occurs. Stage 3 The chrysalis or pupa is found in the transformation stage. Within it the transformation from caterpillar to butterfly takes place. Stage 4 The adult or butterfly emerges from the chrysalis. The adult butterfly has courtship, mating, and exchange of genes takes place. This is the stage when migration or movement to new habitats takes place. Because... The Cocoon A man found the cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress.It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could and could go no further. So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly. What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon. Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as we could have been. And we could never fly. So have a nice day...and struggle a little! Tuesday, August 26, 2008 8:04 PM Let's be kind. =) Monday, August 25, 2008 10:06 PM Giggling and teasing. Like puppy love. Happening on the first time. All I feel is genuine love. Thanks. Sunday, August 24, 2008 5:18 PM ![]() It's raining the whole day. Heavily. I wonder why. There will be a huge gap between us from now. Yet there is nothing I can do. I have tried all ways. And I am running out of ideas. Uncleared doubts are flooding my mind. But I know I missed you. Saturday, August 23, 2008 5:08 PM I was online the whole night. Waiting. How perfect is my life. I spend my time trying to be who I am not. Pleasing a person that I thought I am in love with. Because he is. What I thought I could ever want. Yet there are possibility that I will lost everything. Living my life on the edge. It's pathetic life, I must say. I have nothing against my name. There is nothing we can ever promise each other. Nothing anymore. We have lost the chemistry... Haven't we? The minute you were gone. I waited for you to say hi. Yet there are chances that others get a smile but I get none. All I want is at least... A little missing. But I doubt. Pity me. Friday, August 22, 2008 10:58 PM ![]() Ever wonder how soap taste like? It tasted bitter. It is inedible but out of curiosity I tried. Those shampoo that claims that wont hurt your eyes? I tried. A little foam wont hurt, too much stings. Life is about taking chances. How far are you willing to go? How good are you at taking risk? How well are you at judging it? Friend quoted "Trust your guts. Back of if it feels unsafe." Maybe I should start taking chances. Thursday, August 21, 2008 10:42 PM January, 20th, 1983 is a Thursday. So is October 25th, 1984. I like birthdays. Birthday cakes and Balloons. Colourful ribbons and banners. Happiness are filled at every corner. Candles burning with joy filled sparks. Birthday song and words of wishes that can make you cry. Presents awaits to be opened one by one. You will have one wish that will come true. I like birthdays. Can I have the honour? Wednesday, August 20, 2008 10:43 PM Pretty yet helpless. Adore by plenty and dislike by few. No feelings are harmed. Stretched out yet untouched. Movements are made of not my intention. I felt like a doll today. I'll be alone. The day after and next. I shall speak of no evil. I will be an angel and be a sweetheart. I'll just sit and smile. I wanted to accumulate blessing... In exchange for your safe return. Into my arms. I will be good. I promised. 12:02 PM I have never been happier. I smiled more than I ever could. Yet my heart remains cold. Slowing down on every beat. Because I'll miss you. I closed my eyes to see. Your heart beat... I hear your rhythmic breathing.. Tracing your skin with my finger tip. I wanna feel you tonight. Warming up in your touch. I closed my eyes to see. I smiled in my sleep. Tuesday, August 19, 2008 10:14 AM but it's even harder to give up, when you know it's everything you ever wanted." Ever felt this way? =) Sunday, August 17, 2008 3:42 PM In the comfort of your arms. Night of loving words and sweet actions. Brought out the gentle side of you. A side of you that was rarely seen. I like the way we wake up on the same bad. I like it better opening my eyes to your sleeping face. I like it when I can stare at you sleep. I like... so much more.. A side of you that screamed emotions. It was charming. A sight hard to forget with the pace of the current world. A world that only the strongest survives. A side of you that got received refusal But it was born that night. Candy Floss on the house. Anyone? Saturday, August 16, 2008 4:59 PM It's for the better. I have a really good day. Thank you. I wanna keep this feeling to myself. =) 1:05 PM ![]() A certain man planted a seed and watered it faithfully and before it blossomed, he examined it. He saw the bud that would soon blossom, but noticed thorns upon the stem and he thought, "How can any beautiful flower come from a plant burdened with so many sharp thorns?" Saddened by this thought, he neglected to water the rose, and just before it was ready to bloom... it died. So it is with many people. Within every soul there is a rose. The God-like qualities planted in us at birth, grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects. We despair, thinking that nothing good can possibly come from us. We neglect to water the good within us, and eventually it dies. We never realize our potential. Some people do not see the rose within themselves; someone else must show it to them. One of the greatest gifts a person can possess is to be able to reach past the thorns of another, and find the rose within them. This is one of the characteristic of love... to look at a person, know their true faults and accepting that person into your life... all the while recognizing the nobility in their soul. Help others to realize they can overcome their faults. If we show them the "rose" within themselves, they will conquer their thorns. Only then will they blossom many times over. Friday, August 15, 2008 12:58 PM ![]() Stroking my fingers in the most delicate ways. Soft tender kisses in the sweetest ways. Attentiveness in a loving way. He was a sweetheart today. It's been a while since we have dinner together. That funny, smart, humorous guy I used to fall in love with. A perfect gentlemen. I'll miss you. Wednesday, August 13, 2008 8:46 PM Where are we heading ?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 7:32 PM ![]() This is my favourite movie all the time. It gave Love a beautiful name. I watched it with a guy friend. It brought a tear to his face as well. I found no matter how strong you are, Love can actually break you down to pieces. Yet many people just wanna fall in love time and again. So.... I watched it again tonight. Because I wanna fall in love. Monday, August 11, 2008 7:33 PM ![]() I heard this song by Simple Plan. It's call You Love is a lie. Read and think how it would feel like if you are him... I fall Asleep by the telephone It's 2 O'clock and I'm Waiting up alone Tell me where have you been Found a note with another name You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same Cuz I can feel that you're gone And bite my tongue forever While you try to play it cool You can hide behind your story But don't take me for a fool Chorus- You can tell me that there's nobody else (but i feel it) You can tell me that your home by yourself (but i see it) You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want But i know your love is just a...lie. You look so innocent but the guilt in your voice gives you away Yeah you know what I Mean How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I Trust You And do you think about me when he Fucks you Could you be more obscene So don't try to say your sorry Or try to make it right Don't waste your breath cause it's to late It sure hurts more than what you can ever imagine... =) Sunday, August 10, 2008 7:33 PM 古希伯来语中有那么一句话:"爱如死般坚强." 迷上一个人只需一分钟,喜欢上一个人需要一个小时,爱上一个人需要一天, 但是忘记一个人却需要一辈子.如果还想努力,你就别说再见. 如果仍想继续,你就别轻言放弃.如果不能放弃,你就别说再也不爱他. 不要轻易放弃你的爱,否则有朝一日爱也会这样放弃你. 也许生命中的伤悲莫过于遇到了一个对你来说很重要的人,却最终发现错于无缘,终究不得不放弃. 也许上帝希望我们在邂逅合适的人以前先遇到一些不合适的人, 这样当我们遇到合适的人时,我们就知道对这份礼物心怀感激了. 事实上直到失去的时候,我们才知道自己曾拥有过什么, 但另一个事实是,只有等到出现时,我们才知道自己所盼望的是什么. 将你全部的爱都给予一个人,并不能保证别人会回报以爱! 不要期待爱的回报,仅仅等待爱在他们的心中成长.如果事与愿违,你也应该为你心中有爱而满足. 当下雨的时候记得要抬头,不要低头.因为如果没有雨,也就没有彩虹, 也许你已经明了,我那些话中的话,也许你已经知道,如今我依然在等候. 我爱你,不必是现在,因为我总会等候到,你也许需要我的那一天,因为我深爱着你 Saturday, August 09, 2008 7:33 PM ![]() It's National Day. Singapore's 43th birthday. We have celebrations, parties, firework and parades. I was asleep. I was soundly asleep. Woke up only for a 5 mins purpose. I can't help but to wonder. Is it all worth it. All the songs written for Singapore. There is this one line that I really adore. It's from the song called : We are Singapore There was a time when people said That Singapore won’t make it, but we did There was a time when troubles seemed Too much for us to take, but we did We built a nation, strong and free, reaching out together For peace and harmony Chorus 1 This is my country, This is my flag This is my future, this is my life This is my family, These are my friends We are Singapore, Singaporeans We the citizens of Singapore Pledge ourselves as one united people Regardless of race, language or religion To build a democratic society Based on justice and equality So as to achieve happiness Prosperity and progress for our nation. Chorus 2 We are Singapore, we are Singapore We will stand together, hear the lion roar We are Singapore, we are Singapore We’re a nation strong and free forevermore Repeat Chorus 1 We are Singapore, Singaporeans (x2) Friday, August 08, 2008 7:34 PM ![]() It's Olympic 2008. Everyone is waiting for this moment. Especially China. =) And me...? For him. He's only 23. He is Michael Pelps 7 Gold Medals and 5 world record 2007. Thursday, August 07, 2008 8:44 PM Looking at the past posts, it's nothing but him. That is not what it should be happening in my life. At least not right now. I was determine to make some decisions. Then he came with these. It aren't as pretty as the real roses, nor does it smells as fantastic. But it's made with sincerity. What should I do now? Wednesday, August 06, 2008 6:29 PM Token of Love. Laced with anticipation. Looking forward to see that smile on your face. It is only that simple. Thinking twice when I first saw it. For price is a little steep. "Follow your heart." I bought without second thought. A birthday present is just an excuse. I want you to have it because you wanted it so much. The next comment I got... " Don't come crying when he dumps you." I tears to this sentence... "I dun like to have my ego challanged" When I only tease him a little. He is a little tense from work. I tried telling myself. What I am not expecting is yet to come. "I felt it tat way ... n i reacted with the most basic human instinct .... retaliate ..." To not anyone... But me. Salvations is done... "I know u have no intentions, i cant help it either" Then who can?? I am very hurt. These days are straining both of us. It's painful to be forced to that tight corner. Yet he doesn't understand the effect. I'm really hurt this time. Baby... I really only wanted you to be happy. I have no other intention or motives Care to share my pain? Because I really want to be your perfect one. But now, I don't. 2:35 PM ![]() It's cramped in here. The air is stale. I cant seems to organize it. I can't think. Fear starts creeping up. It's not working anymore. This is bad. There are too much on the left. Right side is already fully packed. Not on the top, it will topple. Basement is filled like a second foundation. No more. Air is thinning out on me. I can hear my heart fading away as the second hand of my watch. I felt so alone. I need that little pull. Someone... I won't give up. Because I am almost there. Because I know I am capable of doing it. Because I am Me. And to you... FUCK YOU! Monday, August 04, 2008 11:10 PM I wondered the day before. I wonder since the day we met. I wonder how long and where are we heading to. Neither is it smooth or stable, Nor will there be a common destination. From where I am standing, I laughed. You are my cigarette. My drug. A little dosage of enough, Keeps me coming back for more. I like the way we play the game. Phrase: Sky's the limit. Ours: Unknown. Playing with emotions. Playing with feelings. Playing with wants. Playing with needs. Haha~ Oh Baby... How I love you so. Sunday, August 03, 2008 9:31 PM Saturday, August 02, 2008 4:18 PM ![]() It wasn't an easy decision to make, but strangely I feel real proud of myself to have done it. I'm confusing even myself on a daily basis.
"Two roads diverged into the woods And I- I took the one less travelled by- and it has made all the difference"
We shall see. Friday, August 01, 2008 8:39 PM ![]() When You believe by Mariah Carey Many nights we've prayed With no proof anyone could hear In our hearts a hopeful song We barely understood Now we are not afraid Although we know there's much to fear We were moving mountains long Before we knew we could There can be miracles, when you believe Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will You will when you believe In this time of fear When prayers so often prove in vain Hope seems like the summer birds To swiftly flown away Yet now I'm standing here My heart's so full I can't explain Seeking faith and speaking words I never thought I'd say There can be miracles, when you believe Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will You will when you believe They don't always happen when you ask(Oh) And it's easy to give in to your fears(Oh...Ohhhh) But when you're blinded by your pain Can't see your way straight throught the rain Small but still, resilient voice Says love is the relief(Ohhh) There can be miracles(Miracles) When you believe(Lord, when you believe) Though hope is frail(Though hope is frail) It's hard to kill(Hard to kill, Ohhh) Who knows what miracles,you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will (somehow,somehow, somehow)somehow you will You will when you believe You will when you You will when you believeJust believe...in your heart Just believe You will when you believeeeeeeeeeee A song I tears for. =) |