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This is just a place for me to pen my thoughts and beautiful things or even people... It can be about anyone or everyone... Or it can be of nobody.
I am... Addictive, Imaginative, experimentive, rebellious, Bitchy, Extroverted/Social, Flirtatious, Funny, Intellectual, Loving, Romantic, Serious, Flamboyant, Demure Cravings... Beauty of all living or non-living, DayDreaming of the impossible, Chauvinist to rule my world, Life at the end of the rainbow, Love that station me at cloud eleven, Sex that last for eternity. For thoughts As the sun rises from the far eastern horizon, so will her hopes together; embracing another new day to soar through the endless skies only to fall past the distinct line that seperates earth and heaven to pave way for the diamond strewn velvet night sky where her dreams will take its rightful place... Archives September 2005 Thanks for reading. =) hidden hit counter |
Friday, October 31, 2008 12:35 AM  The most happiest man....... Happiness is the most important thing for you to achieve in your life Happiness can not be gained It is earned by your heart Happiness can be found When you show your kindness to others Happiness can be found When you are nice to those you hate Happiness can be found When you help others Happiness are the love and kindness And learn to enjoy what ever comes along Happiness is not far away from you It is close to you heart Happiness is fulfilling your wish then you are the happiest. Thursday, October 30, 2008 2:45 PM     These Are 4 Things That You Cannot Recover... Wednesday, October 29, 2008 4:20 PM  Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic. SCORPIO - The Intense One Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional. LIBRA - The Harmonizer Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible. ARIES - The Daredevil Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge... EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic. AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality. GEMINI - The Chatterbox Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, but is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally. LEO - The Boss Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive. CANCER - The Protector Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feel kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic. PISCES - The Dreamer Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful. Tuesday, October 28, 2008 4:02 PM  All too often, I have seen that a person's past controls their future. I have seen it in my own life, where people would criticize me and tell me that I was worthless and would not amount to anything. I have also seen it in others lives as well. The person who used drugs and feels there is no way to stop. The Gambler who doesn't feel they can quit. The sexual addict or shopaholic who can't stop their behavior. The workaholic who feels that their job is their very existence and without it, they would be a nobody. Aftere all, these people have thought that their situations are permanent, and once in them, they can never get out of them. This is, I see, a sad view on life today. We don't have to let our past life and actions control or dictate what will happen to us today or next week or next year or in the years to come. God gives each one of us the ability to change the way we live. It is ours for the asking. What we need to do is to reprogram our minds, thoughts emotions and actions. We need to reflect on what we were doing and ask ourselves this question- Is what I was or am still doing now bringing me peace, joy and contentment in my life? If your answer is "no", then I urge you to reflect on what needs to be done in your life to change and break the bonds of the negative situations that have been in control of your life. You and I can change and make our lives better- There is Hope. My hope is in God's will and desire to change me and make me a better person. I know I want that in my life. What about you? Monday, October 27, 2008 7:51 AM  Looking at this quiz I found on newspaper:
Sunday, October 26, 2008 9:21 PM  Did a mask, painted my nails, clean up my room. Bathed my dog, conditioned my hair, enjoying my time. I'm free. And Happy =) Saturday, October 25, 2008 12:01 AM Friday, October 24, 2008 6:47 PM Thursday, October 23, 2008 9:17 PM     今天我过的真的很不错！ 有点小开心。 没有特别的原因哦。 希望你也是。 =） Wednesday, October 22, 2008 6:44 PM  Happy 24th Birthday, Brother.May your dreams comes true. Love you still even when you are a pain in the ass~! Tuesday, October 21, 2008 12:17 PM  The bud had grown into a flower. From the river of tears. It's acidic level activated the determination. Determination of the rainbow flower. Been through tender care and love once. It had grown to love. Tore away and abandoned, from a sheltered paradise. Out in the cold which became sunshine. Verge of giving up and struggled on. Holding on the last breath, With help, The seed was planted. Seed sprout and buds grew. Today it grow into a flower. Finally. Because you stopped to look. Because you smiled. Because you took a sniff. Bacause of you. Thanks. Monday, October 20, 2008 12:17 PM  Fun Fair Smiling from ear to ear . Chocolate teddy bears and juicy Candie apples. Bright coloured balloons and ribbons. Free flow of sodas and colas. Laughter flooded paradise. Candy floss machine is my favourite. Bubbling popcorn machine is my magic. Games and games and tonnes of it. I like to fish the frog. Getting a prize is that easy. I hope you enjoyed yourself too. =) Sunday, October 19, 2008 11:52 PM  Friends are the best thing that ever happened to me. Thanks for making me laugh and entertain me. I had a great night. *Thanks Nise Saturday, October 18, 2008 11:53 PM  Faith. Do you believe in that? Someone quoted that everyone needs faith. In everything that one do in life. How do you look at it...? I used to think that love needs faith. No matter what kind of love. Always have faith, There might be a chance when someone you love lost it. You help to give some of your faith to them. Because you love them. I like the quote yet right now... Who is really out there to return or give me some...? Time will tell... And here's the beginning of a gambling game. I awaits. Friday, October 17, 2008 8:43 PM  Watched Nights in Rodanthe with a sweetheart. Know him for years. I realised there are people whom you tends to miss in life. People who will always make an effort if you remember. Learn to cherish and appreciate. I have just renew a friendship. I had a great day. Hope you too. *Thanks Ervin. Thursday, October 16, 2008 5:01 PM  Today is the 16th day.It doesn't hurt as much. Yet there was a pinch when I realised he took down a photo. It had been my favourite because the photo said so much. Now it's gone, I have even nothing more to hold on to. I did my share. I deleted him from my Msn. Removing his pictures from my album. Deleted a treasured folder containing memories of the past. There is nothing left. Someone new in your life. I pray for the best. No tears today. I wish you enough. Wednesday, October 15, 2008 5:10 PM  "His birthday is on the 25th." She was looking through the delivery booklet guessing which will be his favourite. She smiled as she commented on each design. Nothing seems to be good enough for her prince. I asked her why is she doing that. When they are no longer together. "I just wanna do something for him. I want him to be happy on his birthday. Even if that's the last thing I do." Innocently heartbreaking. She have lost weight. She haven't been smiling. Yet I know he will not even slow down his pace to just look at her. Or he might just have someone new to keep him occupied. I think she knew but refusing to admit. I wondered what is holding her back from letting go. She always puts on a strong front. Who really know what she is thinking. I know I have to do it... "I think the last thing he would want you to do for him is leave him alone." The smile was gone. Replaced clearly by tears. The booklet slowly slide off her hands. She look at me with her teary eyes. I held her in my arms... Uncontrollable sobbing accompanied with a trembling body and broken soul. Tuesday, October 14, 2008 5:32 PM  I took a stroll today.Looking at the people walking by. Who would have notice me...? I started smiling at random people. Most of them smile back. The rest have fear. Guess they had been hurt. Forgiven. Company of loves and friends. We have a great afternoon. I was smiling. My mind is taking a holiday. I didn't think of anything today. Random-ness. "Love find people. You don't find love." Monday, October 13, 2008 5:44 PM  I have met a few sunshine creators in m life.Course mates are the best. Because you have no one else but them and vise versa. It's been a while since I felt appreciated. It's been laughter filled day. I really need more friends. Love you guys so much. =) Sunday, October 12, 2008 8:43 PM  I watched it twice.I like the complicated feelings involved. Saturday, October 11, 2008 8:43 PM  11 days.He wont even say hi. I cut my nails. Short. Looking back at what we had been through. I get a clearer view. A scary truth. It had always and only been trying to be together isn't it? There is only interest at the initial stage... Leading to accomplishment and to realise these isn't your game. Pushing my limits is the only way out. In order to keep your pride, You made me threw mine. You didn't take me for granted. Things that I do aren't appreciated because I volunteered Paid for meals and transportation is a way of repaying. So we don't owe each other anything. Tell me this aren't true... Friday, October 10, 2008 12:44 AM
*I love this song. Thursday, October 09, 2008 5:45 AM Wednesday, October 08, 2008 4:46 AM  Friend quoted that giving in might just allows your partner to take you for granted... Tuesday, October 07, 2008 10:01 AM  I need a hug.But I am fine. =) Monday, October 06, 2008 11:50 AM  我带着一颗疲惫的心 走了 Sunday, October 05, 2008 6:59 PM  Walking along the road alone. Chilling air breezes through. I realised that there is no conclusion to this everything. I was left hanging alone once again. One thing I was holding on to is that he never claimed it's over. However so, it broke my heart even more. I have made a decision to end it. He used to be my everything. I only wanted him to be happy. I tried means and ways. Maybe we are just not meant to be. If leaving him alone will bring him joy.... That will be the last thing I will do for him. Saturday, October 04, 2008 6:59 PM  It must have been me who forgets to give you understanding. It must have been me who forgets to give you attention. It must have been me who forgets to give you your space. It must have been me who forgets to give you the desired care. It must have been me who forgets to listen to you. It must have been me who forgets to give in to you. It must have been me. I was taught not to expect anything in a relationship. So it will be easier to let go. I wish I had already mastered that. I would have been in lesser pain. One minute you kissed me saying hi. The next you logged off as soon as I logged on. I wish I can rewind and pause. So that I can stay there in your arms. It hurts even worst when it's second time. I want you to be happy. If it means letting you go. But I know I'll miss you. I'll miss the way you look so sound asleep. I'll miss the way you look when you want things your way. I'll miss the way you look when you are hard at work. I'll miss the way you look when you are cheeky. I'll miss the way you look when you taste something good. I'll miss the way you look you gave me when you didn't want to wake up. I'll miss the way you look when I done something nice. I guess I will miss you... Thanks for everything. Friday, October 03, 2008 7:00 PM     I miss you so much...Thursday, October 02, 2008 6:35 PM  My love aren't a fairytale afterall.I can't helped but laugh in my tears. Taking sensitivity and vulnerability into consideration. Convinced it was in fit of anger. You are still my everything. Rest was needed, not a wink was caught. In company of alcohol, cigarettes and tears. What more can I ask for... I waited to see you home. Where I was expecting you to be. I stretched out to you yet I was stopped. Without mercy, with no hesitation. I was trembling, feeling cold and weak. I was warned that it will be the last... "Leave me alone." Expecting it all to be a bad dream. I only want to be in your arms. I just want to sleep. Verge of break down... I head home alone... Wednesday, October 01, 2008 6:36 AM  I lived in a fairytale with the most magical touch of love. Prince Charming in his handsome white suit accompanied by dashing white horse. A kiss that awakes the deep sleep, breaking all spells of evil. Trotting down the path sweeping me off my feet toward the castle of dream. Evil witches, cunning goblins, fire blowing dragons, he fought all. Heat of the burning sun, wind from the blistering cold. There he was, standing charismatically strong. I am in love wholeheartedly and all belong to him. It was the kiss of true love that break the spells. Word by word from him, I memorised by heart. It had been a want to and not a need. He is my everything and all that I can ever ask for. Withstanding all obstacles, we have met yet another. Trapped alone in the dungeon. I await for his rescue. He will come. He will placed kiss on my forehead and hug me into his safe arms. Fairytale is supposed to have a happy ending. It is supposed to be happily ever after. It is supposed to be... |
