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Sunday, May 31, 2009 3:23 PM  Roles that we took on in life. No matter how we procrastinate or deny. We still have it past us by. Looking at older people, Complaining about their actions, actions and reactions sometimes, We are in denial that we might get old one day... Looking at the young, We can't help but slap on each other back... Laughing as the memories hits us... Saying, "We are once like that." We have forgotten that we are getting older each time... I just have to learn to have an open heart... Forgive and forget.. Let's learn to cherish what we have before we lost it. =) Saturday, May 30, 2009 3:36 PM  These things I promise I will do That life may grant you ample grace Because I love and cherish you: I vow to treasure what is true That I might touch whom I embrace: These things I promise I will do. I'll build a garden in your view That with sweet fruit will stone replace Because I love and cherish you. I vow to love each day anew, For love must dance through time and space: These things I promise I will do. I vow to make your terrors few And then with you those demons face Because I love and cherish you. And now, as we make one of two, A passage we cannot retrace, These things I promise I will do Because I love and cherish you. With warmest love and wishes to the newly wed couple: Anthony and Alison. =) Thanks for having me at your wedding. Friday, May 29, 2009 4:12 PM  Please spare some time to read. MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration, I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning.. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, "I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart." Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card... I smiled and wrote, "I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart." That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage Thursday, May 28, 2009 3:31 PM  Success Is Waiting To Happen When we see someone successful, we say that 'He just got lucky. He must have been at the right place at the right time.' People only see one side of the picture. People don't see the failures. If you study history, you will find that - All stories of success are also stories of great failures. So if you are failing; Remember, success is waiting to happen. Wednesday, May 27, 2009 3:53 PM  A saint asked his disciples, 'Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?' Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout for that.' 'But, why to shout when the other person is just next to you?' asked the saint. 'Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice? Why do you shout at a person when you're angry?' Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the saint. Finally the saint explained, 'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance.' Then the saint asked, 'What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, why?' 'Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small...' The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.' MORAL: When you argue do not let your hearts get distant, do not say words that distance each other more, else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return. Tuesday, May 26, 2009 3:59 PM  When you have friends like that... Smile. Monday, May 25, 2009 4:19 PM  Team leader YOU ManagerLife is like that... There are 2 people always next to you: 1 - The M (Manager), giving a pleasant smile every time he sees you. 2 - The TL (Team Leader), busy in scheduling work for you..... And busy in his world. And In between its YOU, who struggles with all the WORK...?!! Sunday, May 24, 2009 4:54 PM  Why Can't YouAt times, even the Sun’s brightness is overshadowed by clouds. Why can’t yours? However dark and dense the clouds may be, Sun will shine back. And it will shine the brightest. Why can’t you? Friday, May 22, 2009 4:57 PM One liners - Definations 1. Cigarette: A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end and a fool at the other. ********** 2. Love Affairs: Something like cricket where one-day internationals are more popular than a 5 day test match. ********** 3. Marriage: It's an agreement in which the man loses his bachelor's degree and the woman gains her master's. ********** 4. Divorce: Future tense of marriage. ********** 5. Lecture: An art of transferring information from the notes of the lecturer to the notes of students without passing through "the minds of either". ********** 6. Conference: The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present. ********** 7. Compromise: The art of dividing a cake in? Such a way that everybody believes, she got the biggest piece. ********** 8. Tears: The hydraulic force by which the masculine will-power is defeated by feminine water-power. ********** 9. Dictionary: A place where divorce comes before marriage and success before work. ********** 10. Conference Room: A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everyone disagrees later on. ********** 11. Ecstasy: A feeling when you feel you are going to feel a feeling you have never felt before. ********** 12. Classic: A book which people praise but do not read. ********** 13. Smile: A curve that can set a lot of things straight. ********** 14. Office: A place where you can relax from the strenuous home life. ********** 15. Yawn: The only time some married men get to open their mouth. ********** 16. Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do. ********** 17. Committee: Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together. ********** 18. Experience: The name men give to their mistakes. ********** 19. Atom Bomb: An invention to end all inventions. |