"如果有一千个人从我的身边走过.我也可以听出你的脚步声.
因为有
999个是踏在地上.只有你是踏在我的心上......"
When I was about 7-8 years old, the lower stretch of my legs would always hurt. From my lower calves, to my ankles, the pain came one day... and it never really went away. Sometimes it is a dull ache. Sometimes it is a discomfort which I can deal. And sometimes the pain is sharp, like a thousand needles piercing through me from the inside.
They came suddenly too, sometimes during the day, when I was running around the school field during recess. Sometimes hitting me while I was drifting away to dreamland. I remember nights where I was just crying, and yelping "It hurts! It hurts!" while my mom tried to massage away the pain; I can always remember the helpless look in her eyes.
Then my dad brought me to see a doctor. I was brought in for X-ray scans and reflexes tests. The doctors couldn't find anything wrong with me. And my dad told me his logic: he suspected that the pain was just due to my bones stretching out; I was growing, he told me.
And that's what I need to remember. Pain makes you grow.
I had lost my patience.
I ask him to leave last night.
I didn't even want to look at him in his eyes.
Because for once...
I hate you.
I hope that someday, you find an amazing girl.
The kind of girl who means everything to you and
makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her.
The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile,
and when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you dream about.
I hope she’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning
I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it's for the better.
I hope she’s the kind of girl you would die for.
The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it.
The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special,
something that means everything to the both of you.
The kind of girl you can have silly fights with,then kiss and
make up and hold her in your arms like you're falling in love all over again.
I hope you make memories with her you never forget.
I hope she’s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection.
and I hope that one day,
You Lose Her.
I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you,
she slips through the cracks of your broken heart.
I hope it destroys you, because you realize you’ve lost the person you once called your everything.
I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen.
I hope you stay up at night because she’s on your mind and
when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams.
I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won't fade away.
I hope you realize that you’re a new person because of her,
I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and
You miss the old you.
(Quoted)
Pretty interesting website.
Once you click “Go” a word loads at the top of the page.
You then have 60 seconds to write about it.
Let's just say I'm incapable of deciding what's true and what's not.
Early birthday celebration.
Surrounded by loved ones.
Which made me the happiest girl ever.
Thank you.
Everyone.
I've talk enough.
All I can say is I'm ever so fucking deadly pissed off with people have no sense of urgency about losing other people's belonging.
Fucking hell.
Respect is earn, not given for free.
You won't believe how freaky pissed off I am right now.
ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG OR A COFFEE BEAN?
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans… She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, ’ Tell me what you see’.
‘Carrots, eggs, and coffee,’ she replied…
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft.. the mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, ‘What does it mean, mother?’
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.The ground coffee beans were unique, how ever. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
‘Which are you?’ she asked her daughter. ‘When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean
Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
May you all be coffee beans :)
Extra.
Just for your information.
=)
Things were thrashed.
Words are spread.
Amazed tremendously by the ugly side of people.
A little strained was stirred,
But there's nothing that a hug can't cured.
Choose the right people to believe,
Learning to let go of what deemed as unnecessary.
Smile, sweetheart.
And bring out the trash.
I'm going for a nap.
I don't like it when you make me feel this way.
When I have to be let down.
When you have your final say.
You never apologize.
Because you felt no wrong.
=)
无奈。
心有说不出的痛。
你听见了吗？
不看，不听，也不问。
今天有点小寂寞。
哭了就没事。
Good night.
This is not what you said,
Yet was agreed upon.
"Yes, that's what I wanna say and do."
Innocent smile of truth.
Yes, baby.
That's all I need to know.
=)
It's about looking at each other and not talking.
That knowing smile that was exchanged.
We knew how special we both are.
In the world created by us.
I think that's more than sufficient.
"I love you."
"ok"
"You can't tell, can you?!"
*Smile*
"Why are you smiling? You do know I love you, right?"
I love the way you felt there's a need to explain that bit more.
“I know God won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.”
— ~ Mother Teresa
"Urges like these shouldn't be back."
"But it hurts so bad.
So, so bad."
"You shouldn't allow yourself to do that."
"I didn't want to... But no one understands... I'm sorry..."
Self control is tougher than I thought.
I'm crying now.
I don't know why.
I felt miserable.
Really miserable.
I hate this feeling.
Happy New Year.
It's gonna be a great year for sure.
I began mine with...
"Happy New Year. Want to be my girlfriend?"
You never fail to put a smile on my face.
