One day you decided that you want that girl.

That girl who knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be perfect for you.

The girl who believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it, because something was better than nothing.

That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could.

The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths, that girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it.

That girl who saw past your pretty eyes and treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated.

The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever.

The girl who should have you, but doesn’t even though she deserves it.

I am…

My hair may not be a golden shade of blonde, but it will still glisten in the sunlight; it may not be wispy or lengthy, but the soft strands that sit on the back of my neck will always welcome the spaces between your fingers.

My eyes are not the brightest shade of blue, but they will always light up when your face comes into view; they may shyly avert contact due to occasional nerves, but they will always be wide and full of adoration for you.

My lips may not be voluptuous and defined, but they will always fit nicely moving in sync with yours; they may not be soft or supple, but the words that escape will always be a gentle, sweet sound to your ears.

My arms may not be extensive or slender, but they are not too short to hold you around your middle and caress the small of your back; my hands may not be be strong or stable, but they will always be willing and able to please you.

My legs may not be petite or toned, but they will always be quick enough to rush into your embrace; they may not be long or striking, but they will always easily wrap themselves around you.

My features or figure may not be ideal, but they are perfect for loving you.

♥ Installing Love ♥

Customer: Well, I’ve been having glitches and difficulties, and I’ve been strongly advised to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Technical Support: Yes, I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: I’m not very technical, but I’ll give it a try. What do I do first?

Technical Support: The first step is to open your heart drive. Have you located your heart drive, ma’am?

Customer: Yes, but wait - several other programs are running right now. Is it okay to install Love while they’re running?

Technical Support: Which programs are running?

Customer: Let’s see… Past-Hurt, Low-Self-Image, Grudge, and Resentment at the moment.

Technical Support: Love will gradually erase Past-Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low-Self-Image with a module of its own, called Self-Acceptance. However, you will have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. those programs prevent Love from being installed properly. Can you turn those off, ma’am?

Customer: I don’t know how. Can you explain?

Technical Support: Yes. Go to your Start menu and invoke Forgiveness. You may have to perform this operation repeatedly before Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, the process is underway - Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Technical Support: Yes, but remember that you only have the base program. You will need to begin connecting to other hearts in order to get new upgrades.

Customer: Okay, I understand. Hey - my heart drive is filling up with new files already!

Technical Support: Good. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin to patch faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your recycle bin to make sure it’s not only completely gone but also never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Smile is playing on my monitor, and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over my heart drive. Is this normal?

Technical Support: It happens sometimes, yes. Sometimes it takes a while, but eventually everything gets downloaded. So Love is installed and running? One more thing, then, before we hang up: Love is freeware. It was purchased for you many, many years ago. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return cool modules back to you.

Customer: I will do just that. By the way, what’s your name?

Technical Support: Call me the Divine Cardiologist, the Great Physician, or just “I AM.” Most people feel all they need is an annual checkup to stay heart-healthy; but the manufacturer (Me) suggests a daily maintenance schedule for maximum Love efficiency on the heart drive. Please contact me any time for any reason.


♥

"Don’t blame someone else for breaking your heart,

after all, you are the one who put it out there to be broken."

"Cut your losses and don’t waste your time .

Why stay in some weird dating limbo when you can move on to what will surely be better territory?

Don’t want to hear it?

Fine. Here’s the answer you’re looking for,

“Hang in there, baby. He’s not the loser everybody’s telling you he is.

If you wait and keep your mouth shut and call at exactly the right time and

anticipate his moods and have no expectations about communication or your own sexual needs, you can have him!”

But please don’t be surprised if he dumps you or continues to drag you through a completely unsatisfying relationship."

Earlier I was talking to my friend.

And at the end of our conversation I wondered why we do the things we do, why I do the things I do. No matter how useless, no matter how stupid, no matter how totally self-destructive they sometimes are. I still do them.

In her case, she finds her situation perfectly fine so I let her be. But often times, in my case, I am NOT perfectly fine with some of my utterly annoying habits. I still overanalyze until it hurts, I still insist on doing things “my way” such as cramming, and staying up late at night, and downing way toooo much coke. I know, it’s unhealthy. But I do it still. Just like when we smoke even though we believe it’s bad for them. Same thing.

So yeah, why DO I do the things I do, here are some of my hypotheses:

- I tend to think and analyze too much to the point that every minute detail is mercilessly dissected.It gives me a headache but I do it because it makes me feel I have control over things. It makes me feel that I understand the situation and the way things are. It makes me anticipate and prepare for what’s to happen next.

- I am stubborn. It’s not that it was a determined choice. It’s the way I am because it makes me feel that I, again, have control. Maybe also because of this thing called Pride. Damn pride.

- I binge. I binge on food. I shop impulsively. And that’s where I lack control. I do it because it is in these moments that I feel free and uninhibited. That I can let go for even just a bit.

- And lastly, why do I keep myself restricted to my comfort zone? Why do still insist on things that aren’t meant for me, insisting on people who’ll disappoint me? Why can’t I let down my guard?Why can’t I have more faith in me? And the answer to these questions continue to make my headache and ask why we have to be sooo complicated.Why do we have to make promises to others and to ourselves? Why is there always this spot of gray?

So here I am again, doing the things I do because maybe in doing them, I get to keep my sanity. Don’t you think? hehehe

Some will pretend they've moved on and forgotten what it was like to be in love, while some are just plain lost, purposeless and strained.

The dreams we have while asleep more often than not will be a transmission of life's stressors, and on good nights there's either a fairytale, fantasy-like diegesis; then there are the nightmares, where we are but frantic children at heart looking for a sanctuary.

La vieille dreamcatcher will hang by my windowsill tonight while I say a prayer for all mankind and ETs out there before I hit the pillows, hoping come morning...

I will wake with a smile, and so will you.

-Joyce Wong

Welcoming the first day of June with

"Hey gal,i really had a hard time cracking my brains trying to find the best pick up lines.

But till now, it seems like nothing had came out from my brain cos it is fully occupied by u..

So, I do hope tat just a simple hi will tell u how sincere and how much i wanted to befriend with you.. "

From a someone.

Died due to over dosage of cheesiness